by Tex » Mon Aug 27, 2018 9:57 pm
I have been doing some mental health counselling over the summer. Just a ton of shite going on, my mom has glioblastoma- think...John McCain, I am trying to raise two teenage boys, think back when you were 12 and 14..., trying to pack up the house I raised these rug rats in and downsize to something more affordable, trying to run a couple business lines for a small consulting firm, think travel 2 weeks per month and then there is the whole mid-life, "what the f@#K is it all for" question I ask myself almost daily.
My last session, my counselor literally told me it will probably get worse before it gets better and I might want to consider medication. I bounced out, probably not going back to her again. Been sober for a while, did meditation and deep prayer for a while but for some reason, I am generally feeling numb as shite, tired as shite, and stressed out to all hell.
Self-care was a new term I learned....surfing is my self-care but I live too freakin far from the beach, being in Asilomar was bitter sweet, knowing that someone gets it like every day there if they wanted to....surfers in the valley have a sadist streak to us.
I was wondering what was up with the Illusion, hope he can pull out and be the wiser, healthier for it. My God daughter checked her self into a mental health facility this June, right after getting home for summer break. She is super open about it and she said it really helped.
Anyway, the more we can get real about mental health, the faster we can remove the stigma.